I have taken some time away from social media and blogging because a few days ago my husband and I had to put Beni, our amazing dog, to rest due to cancer. He was only 5 1/2 years old and it was the most heartbreaking, difficult, sad and life changing thing I have ever had to do. We have been taking some time to grieve the loss and get back on our feet. We got Beni when he was 7 weeks old on Steve’s birthday and we had only been living together (in LA) for a few months. All we have ever known is the 3 of us together so the change has been the hardest adjustment. Little things like walking in the door at the end of the day or waking up in the morning without him there has put a giant hole in our hearts. The happiness he brought to us was beyond anything I have ever felt and I feel so lucky to have been his mom for the time he had on this earth. I miss going to the park and playing frisbee, or laying on the couch and snuggling – we understood each other and that bond will never leave my heart. I never thought this was going to happen so soon or the way it did but that is life and it has taught me so much. Beni’s life will live on through all of the amazing memories we have had over the past few years. I am so thankful for everyone who has reached out to us during this difficult time. All of the phone calls, text messages, emails, and visits show how truly special and loved B was and it fills our heart with so much joy. Remember to never take anything for granted because you never know what tomorrow will bring. There is so much more I want to say about him, so many memories, happy times and best of all, the love and bond that the three of us had together but my heart is hurting and needs more time to heal.
“Nobody can fully understand the meaning of love unless he’s owned a dog. A dog can show you more honest affection with a flick of his tail than a man can gather through a lifetime of handshakes.”
– Gene Hill
Steve and I were trying to think of ways that we could help other animals, especially in the wake of all of these devastating hurricanes, so we decided to start a GoFundMe page in honor of Beni’s memory. If you are able to donate anything at all it will help cover all the supplies needed to help these innocent and helpless animals. Here is the link with all of the details:
B – We love you forever